WushuLover

2012-02-05T15:54:00.001+08:00

Nothing up much. Just trainings, school and tuition. Really enjoy mints tuition because i think its not very stressful but at the same time, i learn a lot too and become more confident than before :) So i think it really helps. Need to mug like mad already because i realized there ain't enough time.

Really excited for the hongkong trip! Found out that our flight would be at 3. So i might just take a half day from sch to go home and prepare for the trip because i wouldn't want to go to the airport when i stink heh. and i don't want to miss too many lessons but if the lessons are useless (which usually friday lessons are) then i'd just skip that day. Hope i won't miss out a lot especially on amaths :/ Really feel scared now but i know i won't regret going! :) First dream place that i'm going! So excited to go there with the girls!

Will blog again when i'm free. Need to get back to my work! Oh and i think i need more time for training :/ ugh.

2012-01-29T21:39:00.003+08:00

Just a quick update for cny. Spent day 1 in singapore and day 2 in m'sia which was boring because i hardly talk to anyone so all i could do was just stone. This whole cny is probably one of the worst i had.

Had so many quarrels with shawn and then this whole planning of today's visiting to mavis hse then to yingxin's hse. It was shit i swear. The past 1 week was way too tiring. I think i need a break but why is the weekend ending already?! :( Now, i have to wait till next week :/ ugh. K, pictures next time. Too lazy and tired alr.

Hope you guys enjoyed your cny! :) There's still a few more days for it! So if you haven been enjoying, its time to start enjoying it. Throw away all the unhappiness and be happy! Life's great like that. XOXO.

lastly, today is 人日so happy birthday to everyone! Love.

2012-01-23T17:18:00.006+08:00

An update on what is going on during this cny season. Firstly, promised to upload pictures taken during cny celebration in sch so here they are! Uploaded by mr lee on fb so i took it from fb. Just a few only :)

4COURAGE!

Next on, reunion dinner which turn out to be a blessing in disguise. Was suppose to have it at chin lee restaurant which is located at bedok north. However, our table was not at a 'pavilion' like what they told us, it was at a tentage instead and there were too many flies flying around and landing on the table and utensils, so we decided to leave after talking to the manager.

Head off to pizza hut at bedok interchange. Glad to say that there wasn't a lot of people so it was really easy to get seats and our food was served quickly. It was already 8+ that time. the place was so cold that i was freezing the whole time.

Left pizza hut at almost 10. Had a great time eating even though i didn't eat a lot coz i was sick so didn't felt like. Anyway, i think their warm chocolate cake is a must try! It is really fabulous :)

CHINESE NEW YEAR 2012 DAY 1 ;D

Head off to ah ma's hse for visiting in the late morning, had our lunch there which is vegetarian steamboat :) Totally awesome. I love steamboat and fishballs~ hehe left in the afternoon to 2 places for visiting then now i'm back home! Gonna head to ah ma hse later for dinner again but not so early~ even though my tummy is growling alr XD

Even though this pic is kinda dark, but i like it more than the bright one :)

Guess i'm ending my post here. Too tired to continue alr. hehehe hope everyone is enjoying their cny and collect more angpao :) XOXO.

Don't worry so much my dear :) she will recover soon and i believe she is strong. So don't be so upset about whatever happened in the morning and just enjoy your cny. She will join you guys soon. No worries alright? Must think positive so don't cry anymore and don't be so sad alr :( you sad i also sad lehhhhh so don't be anymore k? :) Enjoy yourself and i will always be here for you!

2012-01-20T22:42:00.002+08:00

Cny celebration in school today! It was a totally different kind of celebration as compared to the past few years. This time we had dragon voice PK. It was some singing competition and i'm so proud that justin won for the upper sec category! :) Congrats dude. Oh and we had YUSHENG today in class! :) hehehe. will upload more pictures if mr lee or danny post pictures on fb :) so sorry that there would not be any pictures on my blog post, sweeties :(

Went to bugis with anna and adele after cny celebration which ended around 12+ in the afternoon. Shop at bugis street. Got a new bag, shoe and dress for cny :) and i bought 2 wallet for my mum coz it was cheap and mama wanna have new wallet for cny. hehehe i'm so excited for cny and reunion dinner!!!! then met up with shawn and walked around together then anna and adele went home while shawn and I head off for our movie. watched 'we not naughty'. it was quite nice just that i think the show was abit too long and the cinema was so cold so i was freezing and shivering :/ Pastamania after movie then head off to sino.

I was sick after movie. Had fever :/ and i almost vomit after eating but i still went for training and i'm fine now alr :) training made my fever subside and after bathing i feel better. Ate panadol and a medicine for tummy ache coz my tummy was hurting and now it's better alr :)

Promise to have pictures soon!!!! SORRY READERS :( Shall sleep soon alr since i'm not feeling well and i wanna enjoy cny :) hehehe with all the goodies~

Hope all of you enjoy your cny and reunion dinner :) girls, don't be scared about growing fat!

2012-01-19T20:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 9TH MONTHSARY MY DEAR.
Yes i'm still not very happy about whatever happened but aiya whatever la can't be bothered about it anymore already. It's seriously damn annoying. I really don't know what to write. Probably should blog when my mood is better because i've got no idea what i should blog about but i really hope you will be a better boyf even though you are really very good already. But y'know you're not sweet enough. Anyway i'm wearing the ring you bought for me now and i will keep it in the box every time i'm not wearing it. k la i really no mood blog. shall blog tmr night when i'm most prolly feeling better. xoxo. i still love you no matter what.

2012-01-19T17:49:00.002+08:00

I promise to do a update on camp and orientation so here it is since i have some free time now. Just a really brief one before i head off to do my lit essay which im suppose to hand up tmr so i would not have to owe it over the cny :)

Orientation was dope! I totally enjoyed my day with the sec 1s but most importantly, i enjoyed it because of 1EP & all the other facils :) they make me know what is it like to be a facil and even though it was tiring but it was fun! :) Teaching 1ep cheers, trying to help them out with their skit which turn out to be weird but they had fun! :) and all the dance and having to listen to their complains and how they think i'm a cheater. hahaha it was really awesome. Needless to say, i totally love campfire with all the sec 1s and all the sec 4 facils! you guys were awesome and you made my day with just a simple campfire and all the songs/cheers.

I think i love the orientation campfire more than my level camp campfire. Our campfire at the zoo was just boring and quite sian. I guess i was just too tired and the class wasn't high. Actually, nobody was high la pls. So freaking boring during our campfire. the orientation one that was held in sch was so must better :) hehehe. However, camping at the zoo was a different experience. It was pretty slack with the activities and i like it :) y'know we didn't had to do those element kind of thing which made me rather happy :) we did more meaningful stuffs and i like the one where we walk around the zoo with a GPS and have to be the fastest to complete. something like amazing race so i really liked it :)

Well, today's suppose to be an important day but... shall not elaborate so much. Probably blog about it again later. Need to get work started now! :)

ANYWAY, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR WHICH IS COMING IN A FEW DAYS TIME!!!!

2012-01-13T22:46:00.001+08:00

Doing a update with my phone coz I don't have the time to use my laptop but I promise to do a proper update by this weekend on top of all the homework I have :( I HAVE TONS OF HOMEWORK :(

I still don't feel like im in sec 4 an it's o level year. It feels like I'm still in my own world and that O's is still far away :/ this is a bad sign! I need to start working soon :/ not necessary to mug but just study and complete all assignments. In addition, to do revisions :) yes all these all my goals!

Sino is great! With the rehearsals for national display in march :) I'm super excited about it :) will blog about some wushu stuffs soon because I need to talk about it.

I lost smth really valuable important :/ I feel super upset about it and guilty and just heartbroken :( but nothing can bring it back to me anymore 😭

Wish daddy the best of luck for his operation tmr afternoon and also a speedy recovery :)

2012-01-02T19:53:00.004+08:00

Bye 2011 and HELLO 2012!!!! :)

A quick update before school starts because i think i won't be able to blog so often anymore or rather, i doubt there will be any blog post next week since it's going to be a rather busy week. Sec 4 camp, sec 1 orientation and tuition and most importantly to prepare myself for all the tests that's coming up on week 2 :(

Quite excited for sec 1 orientation coz it's going to be my first time being a facil so i'm pretty excited with all the mass dance, camp fire and activities going on :) Even though sch starts tmr but there is no lesson tmr so yay for cchm!!! Can't wait to meet shawn tmr after 3 days of not seeing him :) hehe.

Yup, 2012 will be year with new beginning, new hopes and new dreams :)

I hope all of you will have a great year ahead! :)

2011-12-31T21:04:00.004+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE!!!! :)

New year is coming in a few more hours time. Are you guys excited? hehehe i don't know why i dont feel very excited or anything. It's like i just don't feel anything at all and idk why. I just don't want the new year to start because i would be officially 16 then and that means it's O level year :(

I look ultimately stupid in this picture hahaha but cute right!

NO WAY I DONT WANT SCHOOL TO START :(

Anyway, spending my new year's eve at home :( i know i know it's so boring righttttt! But not like i can go out at night or go for countdown so it's pretty boring :/ but having fun on the phone with the stupid boy now hehe. he is like being so retarded now telling me that he wanna die but before he die he need to set his will first. Which apparently includes his clothes and the things he have. How much more retarded can he get? HAHAHA.

Well, yesterday was so disappointing and upsetting :( Probably had the worst ending of a year coz i had a super long ride to LICK then to realize that i couldn't eat the buffet coz there was like !@#$%^& alot of people!!!! so frustrating okay!!! i was super excited over this buffet coz i haven had it for really long and then i went all the way down to katong to realize that there was too many people so i couldn't have it :( so annoying la and then had a quarrel with shawn which totally pisses me off. don't wanna talk about it. we are fine now :)

K la shall not rant about it anymore since its over alr :) hehehe shall eat another time after competition. I hope everyone enjoy their new year and new year's eve :) i will blog again at 12 or smth! :) hehehe hope i enjoy this last few hours of new year's eve & 2011 :)

I like this picture a lot :) i think my hair looks so nice :)

2011-12-28T17:46:00.003+08:00

Quick update and a conclusion about 2011!

2011 ended way too quickly. So much great things have happened in term of my sport, relationship, found out who was really my best girlf so that's probably the friendship part :) One bad thing was just my academics. Got really bad results. well, not like i can change it now but just work harder for o's now :)

Glad that I know anna and she became my best friend. Life never feel any worser with her around :) it feels great. She understands me and like i can just tell her every single thing without worrying how she would feel about me and judge me differently. So, i finally got my true best friend and someone who i would still want to meet up with after we graduate and after we married and stuffs :) No doubt that we would quarrel at times but we would still make up after that. Babe, you are a really wonderful person so I hope you will find you dream guy soon!!! *winks*

Next up, i think this year is probably the best year i have coz of shawn :) He really understands me and stuffs. Don't think i should say so much anymore coz i think almost every blog post, i would talk about him :) heheh see how important that boy is to me? Anyway, just glad that i have him in my life and i hope we would last for life :)

So, no gonna have any resolutions for 2012 coz i think it is pointless & not like i would really be bothered by it coz i would always forget that i have new year resolution! Ending off my post with some pictures.

Let's hope 2012 would be a even better year & all the best for O's! :)

Lovely christmas 2011

2011-12-25T21:41:00.003+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Went out with my dear today and i really enjoyed today even though it was just purely walking around, shopping and stuffs. Got a new water bottle for myself and i really loved it! :) got new covers for the both of us but not going to change yet coz of some stuffs so yeah. From plaza sing, then to somerset, from there walked all the way to orchard then went over to bugis then to paya lebar to meet dad as he is fetching me home while baby went home :)

I think it's the best christmas coz i had it with my love :) and it was great to have someone to spend my christmas with! I hope i would spend every other christmas with him too!!! Oh met shuen yee at TAKA when i went there to get a drink and she was working :)

Hope everyone enjoyed their christmas while i enjoyed mine even though i just got a really bad news about smth. Oh well, i shouldn't be so affected by it coz NO STRESS. Next year's competition is just to HAVE FUN, ENJOY and just PLAY :) hehehe. won't train until cry alr like this year like that :P

Will upload pictures soon :) polaroid photos with baby!

2011-12-24T22:20:00.002+08:00

Hi guys :) Doing a blog post now for someone coz she doesn't know what to do about her relationship. I know it's not like i'm a professional lover or smth but just trying to share my experience since she's kind of on the same boat as me :)

Firstly, no crime to dating a younger guy :) Seriously. If it really concerns you so much about how others will look at you and judge you when they know you date a younger guy, then i think you don't love that dude as much as you think you do. I know there would be a lot of gossips once people know you date someone younger but seriously, i don't think it's something wrong :)

Yup, love has no age limit! It took me pretty long to think if i should really be involve in such a relationship where the guy is younger but i'm proud to say that i don't regret and if i were to choose again, I'd gladly want to be with shawn again :) Yes, you would have many problems like having people to gossip about you and asking why you would want to be with someone younger and judging you but ultimately, people would forget about that :) Really. They would accept it and seriously, if you would be happy with him, then why not right? :) But always remember that you must have a balance between him and your friends. Especially your close friends, babe :)

However, if he is a lot younger than you, like 3-4 then i don't think you should be together with him coz you would find him way too immature. Actually sometimes 2 years younger might already be a problem but i'm quite glad that shawn is not the immature kind so we don't really have generation gap kind of problems :) we tend to think the same way about some stuffs. Well, there are 1-2 times where we quarrel coz of something we don't agree but it still works out in the end after we talked about it :) so dear, rmb that communication is very important in a r/s :)

If you really think he is the right one, he is your prince charming, then go on! Be with him :) If you can be happy, then why not right? Don't be bothered by those gossips out there, it ain't worth it. Others will forget about it sooner or later, or they might even be used to it :) Love has no age limit, so just be with him if you REALLY think he is the right one. If the both of you just started out being friends only, then i suggest you to talk to him longer and get to know him better :) i think it's better that way. Oh, try to meet up too. If it would be awkward, then i don't think it will turn out to be a good r/s. Well, all these are just my suggestion :) Think about it and make a wise choice alright? :)

Babe, i wish you have your own true happiness and all the best! :) If you really love him then you shouldn't think about what others say. I believe i have mine all worked out and i'm happy to be with my boy, you will too :) Lucks! XOXO.

8th month!

2011-12-19T20:43:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 8TH MONTH, SHAWN :)

This month was a really hard month for me and I really want to thank you for being by my side no matter what happens and no matter how nonsensical for I am and i really understand that it is super hard to please me coz i'm like always mad at you even for the slightest matter right? You must really love me so much to be able to bear my temper :) yeah but i really love you a lot too :) hehehe.

I know today isn't a very good day coz we quarreled for like 3/4 of the day and only became better awhile after training. I know you skipped lunch coz of me so no more next time k!!!! If you dare to skip again, i'd kill you!!!! hehehe kidding la i won't bear to kill you one la :) I know this won't be a very long post as compared to your 9000+ words of message for me that you sent me last night even though i didn't receive and you sent again this morning. I know i didn't say this, but i really felt super touched coz you wrote really really long. Well, i was so pissed with you so i didn't tell you but i was really touched la. omg i feel super giddy while typing now coz i think i cant face the screen for too long now :/ it's like my eye would be super pain. so im trying to type without looking at the screen. I'm such a pro right? coz i can type without looking :) hehehe anyway rmb hor next time cannot skip meals because of me!!!!

Anyway, this month is also very memorable :) because of y'know! Something that only both of us know :) secret hor! cannot tell anyone! Oh and i admit we quarrel like quite a lot of times this week but you know right? Every quarrel make us understand each other even more and cherish each other more :) i really cherish you alot alot alot more than any word can explain it!!!!

Camp was great with you around too because you were there to protect me and to take care of me :) I feel like im a princess and your baby :) hehehe which i know i am so other girls cannot be hor!!! Must pinky promise ^^ anyway rmb i very easy jealous one so must do what you say k! i will try my very very best also :) oh and, you are left with about 10 days or more then you must do what you promised! :) Xmas party at your hse was damn fun also!!!! I really enjoyed myself and thanks for sending me home after that coz it was pretty late alr and by the time you went home it was so late!!!! thanks so much my dear :)

K la just note that no matter what happens, i will be by your side and i will still love you k? You must also!!! and rmb cannot leave me alone hor :( if not i'd be a sad girl for life :((( i don't care you must marry me next time!!! you will always be mine and i will always be yours :) lastly, happy 8th month!!! I love you :)

P.s i know it's not very long but i hope you still like it! :)

why is my baby so cute? :D

Really love this pic coz i look nice here! :P hehehe.

2011-12-11T21:02:00.000+08:00

If you think I'm a lousy captain then change to someone else. It's not like I really care to be right? If you can say this to the whole team then why not say it to me? Instead of talking behind my back whenever I don't go to training. Since you said that we shouldn't go for training if we don't feel like as it is a waste of time and effort, then I didn't go because I felt the same way and now you are complaining that im a lousy captain because I didn't go for training? I'd rather go on a date than to go for your training. You see how unimportant your training is? Suck on that bitch. I don't give a damn. Seriously, I don't even care whatever you say. So you can go on and demoralize me coz I don't give a shit at all. Oh well, just wanted to do a blog post about this coz I felt like I should address how much I hate people talking behind my back. They should seriously just tell me straight in my face especially a coach.

I'm still a happy girl :)

2011-12-11T17:46:00.004+08:00

Back from camp & chalet! :) One whole week of fun so now it's all back to work :( Had english homework done today so I guess I'm left with egeog? Well, shouldn't have this blog post talking about academics stuffs. Instead, it should be all about the fun I had in camp & chalet! :)

5th-7th Dec was camp :) First thing off was that I met eli then we decided to take cab into sch since our bags were so heavy and since we were late too but waiting for the cab wasn't a short duration etiher :( But well, in the end we got to sch 5 mins late only :) But my junior called to ask where I was coz I told them to meet at 9 in sch but i was late :( oops heh. Camp was fun with all the games and stuffs but I think i never want to be a game IC anymore again. Rather be food IC or others. Game IC is probably the worst IC ever especially when the team never ever listens to you. Y'know how frustrating it is to be the person in front delivering the message and nobody listens to you? They just keep talking within themselves and don't even give a damn about you? It seems like nothing right? But hell no, the impact is so huge. Even the smallest action can make someone feel the greatest. The way they ignore you, the way you don't get attention, the way they tell you that you suck, just make you think that you really suck. Nevertheless, someone told me something during training which totally shock me and no lies, I almost cried on the spot. Even though that piece of information doesn't make any sense, but I don't know why it still pricks into me.

Had almost all my meals with shawn :) Which is probably something good coz at least he doesn't make me feel bad about anything and I can just be who I am. I mean, seriously? Why be such a fake person? Don't you think being a fake person is so dumb & tiring? You're just trying to suck up to everyone around you? I see no point y'know. Yes, I admit there's times where we should be fake in the sense that we should just tolerate for the bigger picture but there's times where being fake just seems so stupid. It utterly disgusts me when people tries to act like someone they are not or just want everyone to like them. Hey, what's wrong with having people disliking you? It all matters whether you have that few true friends around you because they are the ones who will genuinely stay by your side no matter what.

Feels really great to be with shawn coz I don't need to care how I look and how i should act because he accepts who i am and love me for who i am so i can be who i REALLY am. so there isn't a need to pretend to be someone else. I can just do whatever i want and look whatever i like :) It really feels great to just be yourself. I don't really bother what people say about us, about me coz what matters is that we are happy with each other :) I don't need people to tell me how i should act. Why can't i laugh/smile after i get scolded by coach? Is it a crime? Can't I face it positively? What's with all the: why are you still so happy after getting scolded by her? Hey, why be so glum and upset just coz you got scolded by coach? That's so freaking stupid. Why get affected this way?

Hmm, this seems like a really LONG post and it's so boring with no pictures right? :( Well, promise there will be pictures for the chalet part! :) Anyway, just wanna thank my dearest for all the beautiful memories he gave me during this camp and make me feel like a princess with him around :) Cause he will protect me no matter what. Couldn't really rmb what I told him on first day night, but i think i pretty much express what i was thinking & i never like to open up to anyone no matter how close that person is to me. I always like to keep what i think about myself and stuffs inside me because i feel that no one will ever feel what i'm feeling and they just judge me even more. But after knowing anna, i realized that all these isn't true. I feel so glad to know Anna because I felt that i could really open up to her and just let her know everything. Well, maybe not some things :P K, back to shawn omg why is he so annoying coz he kept making me do shuai gun which was damn tiring okay!!!!! coz i had to like make the sound and have to be fast and stuffs and he kept making me do. my hands were aching so much okay!!! but well at least i got it i think? hehe. okok, i think i should end this post soon coz it's super duper longggggg.

Just a short note, special thanks to shawn for being there whenever i need him during the camp and being so freaking retarded that every time i feel upset or anything he would cheer me up. Of course we quarrel but at the end, we would still be fine with each other :) & to take care of me during the whole camp and stuffs and to force me to drink water coz my throat wasn't feeling well. I feel like a princess :) I think others might wonder why we are so close and stuffs and why we must always be together but what's the point of being together if you are not going to be close or what? Or worst still, if you dont even like talk. Don't need to keep sticking with your division right? I think so many people must think why must we be so close. But hey, why not right? okay, i'm really lost for words but just thanks so much for everything and all the memories during camp :) it will be kept forever :) eh rmb i very easy jealous one hor!!!! so cannot be too close to other girls ahhhh :) hehehe.

I just hope the team would stop sticking GIRLS AND GIRLS, BOYS AND BOYS. Have a mixture please?!!!! I realized others feel that CCHM is damn bonded but i never think we are really that bonded because the guys would never talk to the girls and vice versa. What's a team when we are so divided by girls and boys? MINGLE YO!!!!!! But i think we would never be able to really be a team and mingle. Everyone should stop being so conservative!!!! omg.

I guess i will post about chalet another time! :) Look forward to it!!!

2011-11-19T23:21:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 7TH MONTH!!!! :)
You've been a really really good boyf :) thanks for tolerating with my really bad temper, bet you had a hard time tolerating right? Till you said that 3 words which I never wanted to hear from you but well at least it's over and we know why you said it :)
I just want to post something for you and I know it won't be long but note that no matter what happens, my love for you will never change and I will still love you as much :) so don't ever ask me to go for other guys k!!! Hahaha and you cannot fall for other girls also :) you must always be mine!!!
Thanks so much for the Polaroid pictures because you knew I wanted to have my own Polaroid pictures :) I feel really touched by it. Thanks so much!!! :) for the effort :) hehe.
K whatever happens, I still love you and I hope it's the same for you! I enjoy today alot coz of you ;) XOXO.

2011-11-08T21:23:00.001+08:00

Hi, I've decided to update my blog since it's way too dead. Gahh, just too lazy to update. hehehe. Anyway, I'm promoted so nothing to worry about promotion already :) But the problem lies in the probation tests for the different subjects, if i'm going to screw them up at the end of the year i won't be able to do amaths and pure sciences already so i'm pretty scared.

Next on, I think I've been in a pretty good mood these days with no heart aches and stuffs from that dumb ass shawn. I mean like there's times we quarrel and we cried over it, but then at the end, we still talk through it and realized what was wrong and well, I know all the time it's my fault. Shouldn't be so paranoid and demanding anymore already if not baby would have such a hard time. Well my dear, don't worry so much k? No matter what, you're still the only one i love :) Because you are the one who taught me what true love was and let me know how much someone can actually love me and care for me :) I never felt this way before. It's so different with you as compared to the previous guys. You are always there to catch me when I fall and no matter rain or shine, you would still love me even when i'm so demanding and I cause you so much trouble. Love you! XOXO.

2011-10-14T16:13:00.002+08:00

I feel the urge to blog because I feel that twitter's word limit is too annoying. I can't post much of what I feel.

I feel like I disappoint the people around me pretty much. Like the teachers believe that I can do my papers well, they believe I can do it but no, I can't. I'm scoring so freaking badly for my papers that I don't understand how the shit do I score so low even for my best subject, the subject I have the most confident in. I only just pass chinese, how am i suppose to score an A?!!!! Which is my target. I really feel so disappointed. I feel so bad to disappoint the people around me who constantly encourages me. Well, the only positive thing now is that I feel great I didn't disappoint mr so and score really not bad grades for emaths :) considering the fact that I've been constantly failing my tests :) But then to say again, the paper was easy. I just feel so disappointed in myself now. Like wtf am i so dumb?

2011-09-01T23:14:00.002+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!

The most important people that I would want to thank would be my coaches. Hu jl, qin jl, liu jl, zhang jl and the other coaches from sino who are always there for me, who never gave up on me, will always be there to teach me no matter how slow I take to learn, they never find it irritating and they continued to teach me till I get it. The never ending encouraging words and support that came out from them. I can even remember how zhang jl encouraged me before my event started because I was so afraid and so nervous that tears roll down my cheeks. She was there to tell me not to worry and that everything would be fine. In a way, hu jl play a really big part towards my victory this year. He told me the same thing, he told me not to worry so much and for all I know, a miracle might happened and yes it did. So well, I guess I really need to thank these coaches who are always there for me and pull me on through all the hardest moment and to become a better person and at the same time teaches me life values which money would never be able to buy.

Well, so that's for my sport and now my academics. Ms juni leave a huge impact because she never gave up on me last year no matter how lousy my maths were. She even cheer me up when I know my marks and stuffs and she carried on helping me to improve and constantly ask me how im doing. Ms ong for hearing my complains and helping me see things clearly and to actually think about what i really want and i'm proud to say that she really let me see that when i feel like giving up, look back and ask why you came so far. It's the passion, the love for it. Mr Terence Lee for always believing in me and kept telling me that I can do it and tried to come and watch my event and even when he can't he send another teacher down to help me take my competition pictures :) There's so much more to thank but well, i guess i should stop.

Teachers might not seem to be important, but when you really think back, they really helped a lot in shaping one's character.

2011-06-10T19:17:00.002+08:00

So much have happened that i don't know where to start from. I know I haven been updating for a really long time. Well, i won't be updating often. Way too busy and LAZY too. Just a quick summary :)

OBS WAS AWESOME, FUN AND SUPER TIRING! Well, I strongly encourage everyone to go esp to test how strong is your mentality and your willpower to continue whenever you feel like giving up. Shall not say so much cause you should really experience it yourself. It's a really rare experience! I really love my group too! :) Nice bunch of people. I like armstrong too! They are cool yo. HAHAHA. & thanks chloe for all those wonderful stories and quotes which make me think alot about it and im carrying it with me everywhere i go! :)

Next week would be wushu camp already. I want to be a good leader, but where is the opportunity for me to show what i've learnt in obs. Guess I'm just so not recognized. I'm just a noob. A noob who will never be able to lead, a noob who is just a nobody yeah. Gahh, shall not sound so emo! :)

Lastly, I'm so glad that all this while, through all the hard times I had, there was always this person who will constantly encourage me, praise me, tell me all the things I want to hear. Even if we quarrel, he will make the effort to apologize. Don't ever hurt yourself anymore for something that wasn't even your fault. Don't ever do something so silly again. Thanks for being so nice! Thanks for being there whenever i need you :)

2011-05-09T12:58:00.002+08:00

Well, 5 days to study for the last 2 papers. Glad to say Im only left with 2 papers. Well, I guess im going to stop blogging. Lost the interest for it and just totally no time to carry on blogging. Check facebook for all the updates :) It's much more convenient! :) Gosh, not very productive for this mye, pretty slack :/ So i guess my results will be pretty screwed. Well, after june, im gonna mug all the way till eoy so i won't have screwed results for eoy. YAY! :D K, shall stop blogging now! So boring!

2011-04-15T17:32:00.002+08:00

2011 interschool competition has come to an end. It was way too fast. Ended really fast. In the blink of an eye, it ended. I couldn't even catch what was going on and it just finished. Well, i still had lots of fun. Being nervous, being relaxed, being happy, being sad, being disappointed. EVERYTHING. It's a learning process. It's an experience where we can never have.

To sum it up : 2 golds and 1 bronze for individuals. 2 golds for group events.

Love B girls the most regardless of the times i get pissed with them, get upset with them, i still love them a lot. We are a team. We have fun together, we feel sad together. We enjoy the time we have together. Gosh, can't believe i'm going to be the oldest in the team already without the sec 4s. Next year i won't be able to say i have seniors, because im going to be the most senior batch in the team. FEEL SO OLD :( 2 years have gone super fast! I want to be in CCHM even longer.

Even though this year's competition isn't as fun as the past few years, but i still enjoy myself and most importantly, we are still a team.

K, nothing about competition alr. Though someone asked me why do i look sad when i won so many golds. Didn't feel sad about it. I just look sad cause im really tired and im just like that. Don't really feel happy these days. I don't know why. I feel like i don't know myself anymore. I feel like i've changed too much.

Is it the pms period now? Why is everyone so pms bout everything, so anal bout everything. Everyone's getting pissed with small little stuffs or like just being really upset. Cause i need to admit that's how i feel these days too. I'm like getting pissed/upset with very tiny matters :/ K, i think i need some happy pills to make me feel happy again. I need to be cheerful like i am in the past. Yesterday, someone told me that i should smile and laugh more. Which shows that i'm not laughing/smiling a lot. Or probably because this person doesn't know me long enough. But it's alright, i'm going to be a happier person esp since competition is over. I don't need to feel stress over it. Can concentrate on my studies now. So much to catch up!!

Im going to be a good girl and study hard for myself. TRY ALRIGHT. hehehe. K, shall stop blogging alr. Probably sum up what i want to blog.

On a side note, I NEED TO BE A HAPPIER PERSON XD

CCHMS WUSHU TEAM FTW!

2011-04-10T11:10:00.002+08:00

It was worth it. Having intensive training weeks for the past few weeks/months was worth it. Everything was worth it. Now I know how it feels. Finally. I've achieved my goal. I'm going to train even harder to get even better results. Now i know what it feels with the saying that goes all hard work will be paid off. Feel even more motivated to train! Nevertheless, the gold medal can't be mine without those people behind me, supporting me, cheering me on, encouraging me throughout the toughest time of my life. My classmate, my teammates, my family members, my coaches, my friends and everyone else.

Must thank those who came down to support me. & Danny,Yingjie, bryan, yihung & everyone else who rushed to ISH right after school end to support ashley and me. Appreciate it alot! :) & thanks pearle for the chocolates. Thanks to everyone who text me and encourage me. Thanks weeyang! :) Thanks zhe xuan for making me believe i can and the luck he gave me! :) & most importantly, i must thank the coaches who was there for me even when i broke down before my event, was so nervous! Must thank them who constantly support me, train me to be who i am now. Just, too much to say. THANK YOU EVERYONE :D

2011-04-03T18:46:00.002+08:00

What more do I expect when i have the best team of people around me. Regardless of family members, cchms wushu team or sino or 3CR or just friends around me. They are the ones that are behind me no matter what. They are the ones that comfort me when i broke down during training. They are the ones who constantly remind me that they will be there during my event to support me. I have the best bestf anyone could ever have. Someone who will constantly remind me to take care of myself, someone who kept on saying he will be there for me esp during competition. The one who always cheer me on when im all stressed up and stuff. I have the best teammates too. Those who are always telling me that I can do it for competition. & different people in the team always telling me I have the whole team behind me. So i strongly believe I can do it for this competition despite the countless of breaking down during training and tmr's the last CCHM training before competition officially starts. Don't mind me if i break down again. But I know you guys will always be there for me! :) & not forgetting the teachers who were there when they saw me crying during training. I'm not going to let anyone down.

Im going to give my very best. Im going to show people what im made of. What i've been training for the whole year. It's not the time to give up now!

What more do I expect?

2011-03-27T21:03:00.001+08:00

Competition in 8 days. My event on 8th, 11th and 12th april. Pretty nervous bout it since i wish to get a medal for each and every event. I'm going to show those people who look down on me who i really am and what i'm made of. It doesn't mean that having your coach being the judge or joining outside association means that you will win. The skills matters a lot too. So i'm going to show everyone what i've been training this whole year. I'm going to do my very best. Hope i won't be so nervous until i keep on shi wu! I need to relax so i won't shi wu. Stamina sucks too. Need to brush up on it a lot. Need to go for intensive trainings next week. Shall chiong for the last time. IT'S THE LAST LAP!

Most importantly, I know B girls know i'm pretty stress these days due to competition. I know they are there to support me and no matter what the result may be, they are proud of me already. I'm going to make you guys even more proud of me. I'm proud of you guys alr! God bring us together, let us know each other, let us be teammates and most importantly, we are united! :) So let's beat the others and continue with our overall champ just like the last few years! We are able to do it!! :) We, the sec 3s will let the sec 4s have the most memorable year! Love Bgirls'11 the most! :)

Starhub performance was a success today! :) It's going to be broadcasted a few days later. YAY. LOVE SINO! & congrats to tze yuan for getting the champion! Not forgetting, great job chenhui! :)

2011-03-17T09:25:00.002+08:00

Finally it's thursday! :) Well, a quick post before i prepare to go out at 10.30.

Hate myself for being so tired everyday & not having enough energy to carry on with every training. It's only 3 days of trainings yet i can't take it anymore. Where have the energy that i used to have gone to? Used to be able to train everyday without feeling very tired. Yet now, one training is enough. Not to mention 2 training every alternate days. Shucks. I need my energy back. Need more calf and abs muscle. It's not enough! :( Right, i'm so going to screw up this competition. Can't even finish a zheng tao without a mistake. Can't finish one full routine without being very tired at the start only.

Persevere on!

2011-03-15T12:56:00.000+08:00

I realized i haven been blogging for a pretty long while. Sorry! Pretty lazy to update & i don't have the time to anywhere. I thought it's the march holiday so i should update. Well, i'm lazy to post pictures :)

Competition in less than 3 weeks times. All the best everyone! :) Whoever we are competing with, we should still do our best and achieve the best we can yeah! :)

Screwed up common test i think. Most probably. HAHA! Shall do well in mid year to pull everything up. Now i can't wait for competition to end. Well, i suppose this is all. Not much to say yeah.

Can't wait to go out with elizabeth goh this thurs to get my stuffs :) EXCITED! :D

Teammates are the one that can cheer you up no matter what happens! :) They are the ones that will always be there for you.

2011-03-05T21:56:00.002+08:00

Feel really really tired now so I think i just want to go and sleep and wake up tml to study. Hopefully i can concentrate and study for the whole afternoon :) PLS PRAY I WILL BE IN THE MOOD TO. Super tired now :( Even though it's still quite early but seriously, screw common test. Shucks.

I think my life's pretty perfect :) With the best team i could ever have, the team that let me feel the warmth and the unity no matter how they like to bully me, i still love them as much. I have got the most awesome bestfriends. They are the ones that understand me. & who ever say that we can't have more than ONE bestf? It doesn't even matter how many you have as long as they are true. Love my bestfriends for being there for me and hear me rant all the unhappiness and where times i may be really unreasonable :/ Love you guys! :) Y'know who you are if you see this! hehe and next on, i have the best parents i could have. Getting me stuff i want :) Thanks! :D And i have got pretty awesome coaches to coach me for the past 9 years that i'm into wushu. Wushu really taught me a lot. And the teachers in school that never fail to give up on me even when I felt like giving up, they are there to support and help me. Love them so much too! :)

Milo triathlon today was simply fabulous! :D met sabrina that crazy girl there. She was the marshal. Love her and miss her so much! Gosh, miss the 4 days camp with her!! I want to have it again :) I'm really tired maybe cause i woke up 5.15 this morning :/ Shall sleep soon!

2011-02-26T23:18:00.002+08:00

I thought I never blog for quite a long while so i should come back and blog. Life's way too busy for me to take time out to blog. Wanted to do some self reminder.

So self-reminder: Train more on qian sao so that i won't shi wu again like today :/ Next on is kong fan. Need to note that no matter how tiring it gets, I still must do it. It's freaking -0.5 if i can't do. Then all the effort will be wasted. However i'm happy that i could actually do a kong fan with the dao in my hand \m/ LIKE FINALLY. Can say that i'm not so scared of it anymore :) Confidence level increased but still more effort needed. At least, i've the encouragement to do better.

Can't wait for competition cause I want to get it done and over with so i can fully concentrate on preparing for exams and catching up. It's way too hard to focus on both wushu and studies & so hard to balance both. So i need the time to focus just on ONE thing first. Right, I'm really tired now so i'm just summing up.

Finally got my dslr today! :) Such a happy dayyyyyy :D Love my dad for getting it for me! Thanks dad :) K, i think that's all. Pretty tired from blogging alr.

3CR IS PRETTY AWESOME! CROSS COUNTRY WAS GREAT! VIVO WAS AWESOME WITH XINYING, CAL, ANNATAN & THE GUYS :)

2011-02-12T18:40:00.002+08:00

If my bestf ever plan a surprise for me on my birthday, i'd be so touched.

& so, i'm going to surprise my bestfriends no matter how hard it is & i want it to be unique. I want them to rmb this birthday for their life :) And because i love them so much that i want them to know that they are worth the hardship.

Bestfriends really know you best :) A simple text from them never fail to cheer me up no matter how upset i was :) Bestfriends are the ones that know when you are upset when the rest of the world doesn't know & the way they show concern is enough to make you smile. Those little actions are enough to touch your heart and know that you meant something to them. I'm going to make my bestfriends know that they meant a lot to me. Love you guys a lot! You know who you are if you happen to read this!

I love my bestfriends! :)

2011-02-11T22:40:00.002+08:00

So many things happened and suddenly, i just feel like this whole blog is just for me to rant stuff. There's so many things i want to rant but then to think of it, i realized i shouldn't be so depressed about all the things that happened. Like how life's been so stressful, like how i really feel like giving up on everything. I should just rant A BIT right! It's killing me inside! :(

K, so life's going mad. It's haywire. It's like really really really crazyyyyyy. I feel like bursting because school workload is driving me nuts. I feel like im gonna die any moment. I have 2 tests this week, 5 tests next week. It's mad! Should stop here for studies, i know i need to mug like shucks. But with trainings going on, i think i can't really mug hard.

Competition coming up in 2 months. I feel like i want this 2 months to come quickly. I want to start mugging. It's really hard to juggle both studies and sport. I think it's driving me crazy. Even during crazy i feel like i want to give up. I don't know how many times i said this but i REALLY REALLY HATE BROADSWORD. I'm never going to want to do broadsword again. It's so hard that i wanted to cry during training. It's like, i know people will laugh at me when i compete with that noob shit standard but then to think of it, I JUST CAN'T DO IT. WHY IS EVERYONE FORCING ME TO DO SOMETHING THAT I REALLY CAN'T AND EVEN WHEN I'M TRYING SO HARD TO ACHIEVE IT EVEN WHEN I HATE IT. Gosh, i shall stop here!

I think i'm not important to anyone. I wonder if i will get anything on valentine from my friends when i have surprise for them. I wonder if anyone's going to surprise me on my birthday even though it's a holiday. But i think nothing's going to happen cause i suck.

Anyway, i really had fun at ying xin house playing mahjong :) Mahjong is fun! If life wasn't that busy...

2011-02-05T19:57:00.001+08:00

It's the third day of cny!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! :)

Not really really high over cny cause it's utterly boring! Totally not close to my cousins so it felt really boring. Isabel didn't go visiting with us so it's even more boring. Nobody to like play with & stuff. So not close to m'sia cousins so it was really boring too! :/ K, maybe the good thing bout cny is that we get to wear pretty new clothes :) And get red packetsssss! I hope tml will be a better day. I hope all the plannings that i made will succeed! :) *PRAY HARD*

2011-01-21T22:46:00.002+08:00

I feel screwed, FML. I feel like i can't commit to my passion anymore. I feel like school work is a horribly mad. I feel like i can break out anytime now because i feel super duper ultra stress now *how i wish i'm in camp now* There's so much for me to do but there's so little time for me. Can there be more than 24 hours a day? I need to catch up with so many work and i need to attend so many training. I'm having 4-5 trainings a week, it's killing me because i feel like i have neglected my work. When i don't attend sino training, i feel like i've neglected training. Why is this world so ironic! Why are there so many things for us to do! I can't help but rant so much about it cause i really really can't take it. HCL sucks because i feel like a noob shit in there when everyone else like damn pro and i'm like some noob that got transferred from CL to HCL. I feel damn lousy there. & CR feels really different from BN. BN knows how i'm like, they know i'm the kind that cannot make it for study and all those kind of crap, but in CR, nobody knows what i'm like yet. I feel like CR people are damn smart and i can't be compared to them. I don't know how to fit into the class for my results. I feel like i will get last in class or something. I feel very negative about it. I don't know why but i really feel very lousy in that class especially during science or maths lesson which sucked the most. everytime i can't do a maths question, i feel super lousy because others can do it but i can't. I feel like everyone is smart in CR. I kinda want BN back because i feel like i can fit into BN and BN are my standard. They are the ones that are pretty close to my standard, like i won't be afraid of anything in there. I can even score an average score in BN. CR feels really different, i feel really afraid.

I've got this feeling that everyone's going to laugh at me when they see how i do for broadsword during this inter school competition. Everyone's going to laugh their head off because i swear i'm damn lousy. I'm trying to improve, trying to be better but i really really hate broadsword. It's like the worst thing you can ever do but i don't dare to tell coach that i want sword back. It's too near to competition already. & y'know what, laugh all you want. I'm really prepared. & i'm not afraid to say that i feel super scared for competition. I feel like i'm gonna lose out this time. Like the whole world's gonna trample on me.

Why is life so enriching! i don't need so much in my life, i need a life. I need to quit the studying & training kind of thing. It's getting overboard, it's too much. You know i really don't want to train much because in singapore context, results still matter much more than your sport/career. I need to really get a certificate to be someone good. I can't use medals to get everything i want. It doesn't work that way, that's reality. So i think i should really make an effort to study. I know i'm still in the damn slack mood, it's not like i want right! But i really don't have the mood to mug now. I feel damn depressed about it too. There's really a lot of work! :( School's fun because of the company that i have, lesson's fun because of the teachers i have. But the school is driving me crazy due to the workload they gave us & how they constantly remind us that we are sec 4 year 1, not sec 3 and we are preparing for o's already & how o level chinese exam is going to be this year and you know what, i'm so not prepared because i've just got into HCL. & hls say i'm lazy and stuff to the whole class & she's like looking down on me or something. She keep picking me during lesson. I really loathe chinese lesson now. Chinese used to be my favourite lesson, i used to look forward to it but now it sucked. Maybe, maybe... i should never transfer to HCL. I'm really going mad.

WHEN CAN THIS KIND OF FEELING STOP! I REALLY CAN'T TAKE IT!!! At home, i see the temper of everyone. It's driving me crazy at home too! & i really hate my brother for being such an ass. Stop throwing temper at me and think you are some big shot ass. Stop thinking as if you are damn zai. & stop trying to guai lan people. It gets really irritating at times. Just stop whatever you are doing and just be a nice person. It's really frustrating to be at home and feeling screwed.

I guess i'm done with my ranting though i still don't feel very well but oh well, it should end here.

2011-01-18T20:53:00.001+08:00

I'm so sorry for not updating my blog. Been pretty busy with trainings & studies. I'MMA SEC 4 YEAR 1, NOT A SEC 3. SO I'M PREPARING FOR O'S. Alright, i really need to get into the study mood cause i swear i can't settle down and study well :/ Well, i need time to adjust. SOON. By next week i must get myself settled down and study like mad! :) I'm gonna ace o's. I'm gonna try to get one digit. I'm gonna try to let CCHM get into band 1 because of my batch (Y) We are currently band 2. Improved from band 3 YAY! :D K, i promise to update more next time alright. Competition coming up in a few more months so i'm going to be REEEEAAALLYYY busy!

I LOVE MY CLASS A LOT & I LOVE SCHOOL! :D

2011-01-10T10:34:00.002+08:00

Level camp was awesome with campfire & the company that i had :) 3CR FTW! I LOVE 3CR & WE ARE THE MOST AWESOME BUNCH OF PEOPLE. Through the ups & downs, the stupid activities, boring activities, the crazy & awesome trainers, the ranting of how the place sucked, the muds, the stinky toilet, everything that we went through make us stronger. From the first day till the third day, there was a big difference. We were so quiet on the first day, couldn't get high, sticking to our clique and stuff however on the second day, we were all open & getting so hyped up. We were being crazy and whoooo~~ CAMPFIRE WAS AWESOME. We love rachel, our dancing queen :D Campfire was high like mad. Bull and miao/meow was our trainers and we love them. They were the most awesome trainers we could have. To think of it, i really miss them. I still have the camp feeling in me. I miss talking cock to bull and shouting cheers and singing songs out loud with 3CR. Even though we didn't win the best group award but we know we bonded much during this camp. Camp was tough but 3CR went through it, that make us even tougher!

I thought CR was going to be a really quiet class but then through this camp we were all open to one another that make the class so awesome now! I love 3CR! (:

2010-12-31T12:12:00.002+08:00

I thought i should update my blog but i'm really really lazy to post pictures, check out facebook for all pictures :) FACEBOOK (Y)

Since it's the last day of 2010, i should just do a quick sum up of my life this whole year & stuff though i know i kind of sum up already. 2010's been a pretty good year, one of the best year i had. CCHM was awesome, the people i know made me feel great :) The wushu team i'm in is the best team i could ever have. BN was awesome. They make me feel at ease always. They make me feel great. They make me feel like i could be really open to them & tell them anything & everything. i swear the whole class know one of my secret but then that secret doesn't matter now already. BN became closer this year, maybe cause we have became smaller so naturally we bond more & we have much more activities that need us to work together. I really love BN. I don't want to get into the new class. It's going to be awkward. I want the BN feel all over again. Alright, other than this, there's so much that happened this year. All the ups & downs that make my life this year really cool :) The new juniors i had, the new friends i made, they are fantastic.

I think from primary school till now, i kind of changed. I think everyone will, right. I think CCHM's awesome. Even though chung cheng's workload is crazy ttm, but then i had fun this year in school. School was a torture yet fun. I think the people in cchm are good motivational people.They tend to motivate people easily. Just looking at them study will make you feel like studying. Everyone inside is so mugger that you will mug too (: I just love cchm for shaping me to be who i am now.

NEXT YEAR'S GONNA BE A BLAST! :D CR (Y) B GIRLS (Y)

B girls' shall own again (: We shall work hard & try to maintain to be FOUR YEARS OVERALL CHAMP.

2010-12-26T20:11:00.001+08:00

I don't know why the pictures failed to upload so i will just blog without pictures. On a side note, christmas was pretty boring, didn't had a blast or whatsoever. Never celebrated christmas as a big event before.

ASHLEY TOH! :D

I've pretty much nothing to say here because everything that i want to tell you have been written in the birthday card that i'm going to pass to you tml. I hope you will be touched by it. Note that i will always love you, you will always be my very bestf. We are going to be classmates next 2 years, I hope it's going to be awesome! I hope we will become close again. Like the super close kind (: Love you babe. You leave me with many memorable memories that i will never forget.

TEO JAF QI!! :D

Hi dear, you've been a super awesome person. Someone thats observant. You helped me with a lot of things. In terms of studies, homework, tests, exams, encouraging me & stuff. We help each other out, we have fun together, mug together, support each other. This year was the year i got really close to you even though it's just half a year but it feels as if we were bestfriends since long long long ago. yes, i know we were bestf in sec 1 for awhile, after that things took a change. However, it's great that we are bestf again & you are really awesome. Continue being smart in maths k? So i can always copy my maths homework from you :P Nahhhh, i can ask you about maths. You are a really smart person. STRIVE IN 9SUB OKAY! :D make bn proud of you. We've been through some ups & downs, we've become closer (: There's too much that i want to tell you but note that i will always love youuuuu & i want you to be my bestf for the next 2 years. eh, choose a better boyf next time! HAHAHA. Oh my gosh, & you socialise too much already laaaaa.

CASSANDRA LAM!! :D

Oh my gosh i actually forgot your surname! D: why you surname so hard to rmb. I wrote cassandra choo instead of lam. I'm such a failure. But hey bestf, that doesn't matter right. What matter is i rmb you! We are going to be classmates for 4years! That's something awesome. We are going to be even closer. Let's study together for the next 2 years! We must mug together & get good grades for O's. Now, we should pray hard we won't get back SGE as our form teacher if not we will suffer big time! Tsk, she sucks yeahhhhh. Put this aside, you are really nice & friendly. Crazy at times, emo at times. I don't know. We aren't really very close but i think you are damn nice & hey, i'm still afraid of your dog. GOSH! We should know each other much much much better alright! Must talk more to each other. I don't know how to express what i feel about you, but note that i treat you as my bestf & i want you to be my bestf next 2 years also. & we are going to meet up even after we graduate. Love you muchhhh!

2010-12-22T09:46:00.007+08:00

I was reading my primary school bestf's blog, i thought she was really someone awesome. Someone i knew i could tell everything to in P6. It was the best year i had with her especially how we stick together when things aren't right. I see that her life seems pretty great but then, right down it ain't that great. Cheer up darl. You're gonna be fine :)

I thought about my life, thought about how people around me affected my 2 years in CCHM. Then i realized, the significant people in this 2 years were those that are my bestf (:

Elizabeth GohShe's someone that can go crazy with me, alright, the picture describes it all (: A girl with many many guys that like her. HAHAHA. Alright, she's my sweetheart. She's someone that could cheer you up no matter what. She can get really irritating & you can get pissed off with her because of different matters. I get pissed with her over some matters but no matter what we are still bestfriends. She's the most awesome junior i had. She's the most crazy person i ever met (: But well, because she's crazy that's why we could be so close together. She's really sweet & cute. She knew how i couldn't get over him, she was so ni

ce about it, like how she tried different ways to cheer me up. & yes, everyone knew how i was so against her joining SC cause i know SC always take my bestfriends away from me. They have so many events & activities going on that they make people pon training & stuffs. SC make this sweetheart couldn't join us for many events & gatherings. I swear i can get really pissed off everytime she couldn't join us. I admit i get pissed when she have councilor duty this thursday cause she can't go with me to universal early. However, no matter what h

appens, she's someone i know i can get high. I know i get irritated with her whenever she don't want to tell me some things cause to me, i thought that if i tell someone everything, that person will do the same way. Cause, i had trust in that person. I should learn that sometimes, it ain't this way. I think this is pretty long already, just note that, we've been through many many things this year, i hope we continue being very bestf, i hope SC won't take you away like how they took ashley away. I love you darl.

Bryan Lian (:

You're one best guy friend i ever had. Someone that i could talk to about a lot of things. Someone that i could crap with. Oh & the china hairy game (: You've been awesome this year. I know we hadn't been really well at a period of time. We had some arguments but then, i think those arguments make us stronger. I know we aren't very very close, but i treat you as a bestfriend already. Y'know you are really nice in china. Everytime i feel cold, i would find you (: Hence, everytime i feel cold, i would think of you. But yeah, best friends right! :D That's what bestfriends are for. I don't want to type so much things cause there's simply too many things to say already. I don't mind the occasional guai lan things from you, cause i know you are still a nice person (: Stay as best friends alright. Regarding your love life, i wish you good luck. I suck in love, but i hope you don't! (:

I'm not a flirt, i'm just socialising. I just can talk really well to guys, like best friends & stuff. It's not like i'm flirting or what. It's just that i treat them as best friends. But you know for guys i like, i can't treat them that way cause i won't talk to them much like i've got nothing to talk, more like i don't know how to. But for bestfriends, it's different. & sometimes i don't mind the guai lan thing coming out from people that i know, i tend to ignore them & just continue treating them as good friends. Ain't i nice? Alright, i just thought you guys are joking with it, if i get irritated with it, i just walk away. What can i do right? (:

We were strangers when we met, we were strangers when you left.

2010-12-15T22:48:00.002+08:00

I'm back from genting but i should talk about it next time. I feel like summing up this year.

This year been a pretty smooth & good year because of the following.

-Finally three medals for all three individual events.

-Report book wasn't very screwed.

-End of year holidays is simply amazing :)

-Beijing trip

-Genting trip

-Campteen!

-BN was awesome.

-Chalets was fantastic :)

-Something :)

This whole year just awesome! But every year won't be as good as this year so i learnt to appreciate this year even if i keep getting bruises during training, okay no link. But well, i love this year! Just hate the leaving BN part D: I hope next year will be good too! :D

2010-12-08T15:42:00.002+08:00

I realize i really love wushu a lot (: I intended to continue further in poly. I've never thought of continuing wushu when i came into secondary school. I meant, when i was in primary school, i didn't think of still doing wushu. I thought of joining other sports cause at that time, i didn't take wushu as something really big. But when i joined sino, when i started DSA & stuff, it really got me to think that i'm going to continue wushu in secondary school & yes i did. Now, in sec 2, i thought of joining wushu in a poly that actually have wushu as a cca. I'm thinking of NP since hu jl teaches NP & everything will be more convenient.

I asked someone from USA today if wushu was popular in USA, she said it wasn't popular. Hence i asked her why she joined then, she said her mum just signed her into the class & there she was, training wushu for 5 years already. She said she love wushu & yea, i love it too (:

Trained for 8 years yet i still suck right now. Gosh.

2010-12-06T19:13:00.003+08:00

I love this picture a lot. Michael yu (:

Zoe, me, xiang kiat, vietnam guy & girl (:

I really enjoyed this competition even if i was there to watch only. I like the atmosphere. I always loved the atmosphere of all competitions but this being the world junior wushu championships, the atmosphere was even cooler. It's like you get to see wushu athletes from all over the world & not even just asia but the whole world. Korea, vietnam not bad eh (: Vietnam people are really really nice.

2010-12-01T18:24:00.002+08:00

Sup people! K i'm finally back from camp & chalet~~~ Shall talk about the 4D3N camp.

Day 1

Met with my group mates- A1 & facilitators & co-facils. Had ice breaker games & we had to came up with group name. So our group name turned out to be F.U.R (fried united rojak). It was a mixture of names that we came up with (: So it turned out pretty cool eh. But i didn't like day one cause i didn't like the camp on that day. I wanted to go home so badly.

Day 2

Toured like almost half the east cause we had to like go from places to places with no public transport which meant that we had to like WALK. Swear it sucks to walk under the sun & when it takes you almost one hour to walk from one place to the another. We went to eurasian association first after that walked to indonesian school which i've got no idea where it was located at. Next we went on to malay village. There was only one group that could take public transport. That day was really really tiring. The fun thing starts at night, where i kinda like start to talk more to my group people.

Day 3

It rained on this day ((: Something worth being happy about k! cause it meant that no high elements are to be played. I was actually feeling afraid about it. whooo~ K, so we played this game for 3hours & it's the type of game that you didn't know you played for 3 hours, it feel really fast. But i think its kinda fun (: Not bad eh. Just that it's frustrating at first. Had camp fire at night which is the best thing \m/ Had something like "clubbing" but it isn't really & all the performances. I think that night was like the best thing in this camp. I don't know how to elaborate but yeahhhh.

Day 4

End of camp. had mixed feelings. I love F.U.R so much that i didn't want to leave them cause they are the group that's super high & make me feel really great being with them. After i start to bond with them, i get that kind of feeling that they are really nice. It was sad to leave them. Y'know i almost cried when i see the other girls crying but well, we can always meet up yeah (:

This is the most awesome camp i've ever attended & one that i will never regret. & if i got the chance to, i will join again! This camp taught me so much.

CAMPTEEN loved F.U.R BALL loved A1 loved

2010-11-26T18:05:00.003+08:00

Back from beijing (: Will update more when i come back from camp & chalet. Camp starts tml.

Today feels really weird without having to wake up when the phone ring or the annoying alarm clock ringing, without having to go down for breakfast. Rock melon, "shake" eggs, orange/apple juice. Without having to go for training. Without learning new things. Without being so crazy every night & all the card games. I'm starting to miss the team. & miss the asshole dai di on the bus (: Swear these memories are something worth remembering. With a team as fun & crazy, there's no reason you can't love them.

2010-11-16T22:54:00.002+08:00

Leaving for china on thursday & today's tues. & great, i'm only like halfway through my packing? HAHAHA suppose to be packing now but i got tired of it & decided not to pack. My mum even more zai. Ask me not to pack, wait till tml then she pack with me (Y) Own.

You all can spam me for all you want during this whole week from 18-25 nov (: i will check all sms on 25nov. I hope to receive sms! :D hehehe. & i will try to keep in contact with people in msn cause i heard that there's computers at the lobby to use so i will try to use if i can. Not forgetting that streaming result will be out the next day after i reach china & it feels really scary cause i don't want to know the people i will be in the same class with.

That song never fails to remind me of you.

2010-11-13T13:15:00.001+08:00

2010-11-12T22:02:00.001+08:00

All this locking of com, confiscating of laptops are like some child play. YOU DON'T ACCUSE PEOPLE WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN GET THE DAMN FACTS RIGHT. You know how hurt it is when you say that i don't do my homeworks & all i do whole day is just face this damn screen when it's so damn wrong! Do you even know what i do at home! i swear i sleep more than i face this damn screen because i can tell you the internet is boring me out already! & in case you say that i only watch tv, sleep & use the damn com,i actually do study. PLEASE SEE THE HOMEWORK THAT I DID FOR GOODNESS SAKE. GET YOUR DAMN FUCKING FACTS RIGHT. & i'm not gonna let go of my laptop so easily once i get it because i don't give a damn about you. Stop your pms. It's getting on my nerves.

2010-11-10T20:49:00.002+08:00

I used to always want to grow up faster so that i can have total control of my life. When i was young, i always feel envy about secondary students, poly/jc teens & even young adults. They have more & more control of their life. Isn't that how everyone feel? All kids can't stop complaining how they want to grow up faster. Maybe because of parents. Maybe because parents were controlling us too much that we feel sick & tired of it. Maybe because we hate homeworks & exams so we want to grow up faster & we can start to work. To us, work seems easier than studying.

However at the same time, when we are growing up, we feel like we want to be a kid again. Partly due to the homework load increase & the matters we need to handle. There are more things for us to handle, school life get crazier. No doubt it is more fun but then at times, we think that being a kid can be so innocent. As we grow older, there are more things for us to handle. We need to learn to handle different situations. We even care much more about how people think about us, how we should dress up & such.

How irony right? That we want to grow up faster but at the same time, we do not want.

2010-11-09T22:50:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOO YU JIN.

You've been a really really great friend for the past two years, bringing joy to the class as well as me. BN was awesome partly because of you & everyone else. Even through the ups & downs, even through the unpleasant times we had before for a period of time, you are still a great friend (: Even though you are damn vulgar & have no respect for teachers at times, but sometimes your jokes are funny. never forgetting the subway incident wenhao told us (Y) Enjoy your birthday at chalet now k. So sorry that i can't stay overnight with you guys & enjoy your last one hour of your birthday however i hope you like your present. It's handmade. That sushi is nice k (: I think you agree also right! Don't let it rot! Birthday cake smash just now was epic too (Y) You look really funny but well, you enjoyed right (: Hope you could strive even further for your studies, don't keep failing already la. Must study even harder k. I hope you get into the class you want. Eh, downtown can see a lot chio bu, you can slowly appreciate them as much as you want. Well, even though you were mean to me at times, but i forget those & rmb the times you make us happy. Continue bringing joy & laughter to the people around you. & don't feel upset that you didn't get a chance to go for the HCL test, cause even though i go for it, i might not get in. I wish all the best for your studies & continue being an awesome person. stop skipping ncc! Get your best cadet of the month soon (: Continue keeping in touch! :D Love ya.

2010-11-07T19:26:00.002+08:00

Competition finally ended. In every competition, there's sorrow & happiness. From the first time you compete, you should have learn this. Everytime you are feeling satisfied, there's someone out there that's feeling unsatisfied with his/her performance. However in this competition it doesn't test your ability to get a gold because in many events there was only one person hence no matter how badly you performed, you will still get a gold. But rather, this competition test if you will strive yourself further. I'm satisfied with my performance today but no matter how much i hate doing broadsword i still need to learn to be better in it :/ On the side note, i feel glad that i can abandon broadsword for a period of time. I miss the other routines so much.

OMG. She's damn slutty.

2010-11-04T23:15:00.002+08:00

This week is a really really busy week. Training almost everyday & activities going on but nevertheless i feel damn happy this week (: Maybe cause in every training there's people there to accompany me & talk to me and make me feel happy. & every night i've been chatting to people and having fun these days (: I hope np people can continue going for training even after competition this sunday end. It's those small little things that can make you happy too (:

Dialogue in the dark today was pretty awesome. Experiencing how life is like being a blind was damn cool & pretty scary. You will never be sure if you will be lost. When you finally get to see light after that one hour plus inside, you feel so safe. Like finally you get to see things around you again. That kind of feeling make you appreciate your eyesight. This is to sum up what i felt (:

Two months should be enough.

2010-11-02T09:15:00.002+08:00

I remember asking this person how she feel when she does something she don't like during training and it's something she's not really familiar with. To me, i feel demoralizing doing this thing i don't like and it's not just i don't like, it's like i can't even feel that i'm doing it well and people just keep telling you that you are not doing it well, you are not doing it as well as last time. You know it yourself. You know you haven been performing well but you tried so hard to make it seems good however it just doesn't. You put in your utmost effort but to others, it never seems like. People forced you to do the things you don't like, you couldn't have a say that time so you went on, but now you feel that it suck so much. Everytime, i ponder over the things i always do and i can't excel and like it, i feel like breaking down then i realized, breaking down doesn't mean things will go the way you want so it's like useless. You know how it feels to have the strong urge to do back the things you like to do. Oh well, it can't be changed you just need to TRY to do well in it.

It will take me a vvv long time to muster all my courage to train broadsword & gymnastics well. They are hell scary stuff.

On a side note, happy things always allow us to be anticipating them (: It's gonna be a great lunch with some B girls later before heading back to school for rehearsal. Next up is the competition where new friends will be made (: and you will get to enjoy the atmosphere and have fun with friends again (: &&&& after this damn competition, i won't have to train broadsword that much already (Y) Class chalet & beijing trip will be the most awesome thing ever! But can't stay overnight in class chalet seems super ruin.

IVP was really really fun going down to support (: CONGRATS NP WUSHU TEAM FOR THE OVERALL CHAMP. It's nice talking to np people & np people are fun :D HAHAHA.

2010-11-01T22:35:00.001+08:00

I think my holidays are immersed with excessive trainings. The training load is crazily mad. It can drive you crazy esp when you are training something so demoralizing everytime!

See how screwed up my holiday is.

Mon- training in school & sino training.

Tue- Tuition? Homework? O:

Wed- school training

Thur- sino training

Fri- Gymnastic

Sat- sino training

Sun- gymnastic.

Are you awed at my holiday schedule? I swear its super screwed up. Hi, i know my life is shit and its super no life. Thanks i know that~~ And it suck so much that i've got no idea what to do. Sleeping is the best time ever cause it allows me to escape from reality :D You know by looking at my holiday schedule make me feel like dying that i don't know what the hell am i blogging. I'm like lost yeah. I've got no idea what am i rambling about. Maybe i should stop here.

I realized my post these days doesn't have anything nice to talk about. K, maybe about beijing trip and class chalet would be good things. and nice, i just realized people can only go out with me on tuesday. HOW PATHETIC IS THAT?!

2010-10-26T22:39:00.001+08:00

Just when i thought things are going the way i want it, it didn't. & when i thought i really could go hong kong, i can't. So nice for planning everything out and all the hopes just got dashed like that. Screwed up. Being happy for no reason. Anticipating something worth anticipating about for nothing. Screw all this. and life sucks now with all the demoralizing training. Let's hope i won't need to train broadsword in school tml cause if i need to, just kill me right there cause it sucks so much that i hate it so much. Wow, it rhymes.

K, getting damn emotional nowadays. I don't know if its because of jafqi. Even not being able to go hong kong can make me damn pissed and cry at the same time. Even stressing myself out with streaming results can make me go mad. Even thinking about competition in 2 weeks time can make me jump off the building. Wow, this is mad. My life is mad. I should go and screw myself. Yay.

2010-10-25T23:01:00.001+08:00

Nice, competition in around two weeks time and i'm still in a bad condition. Not even improving, deproving i should say. I'm so screwed for competition and i really really hate broadsword. super screwed.

2010-10-22T22:41:00.002+08:00

Love to the max :)

Jonghyun is awesomely cute & hot :DD

Just got home from training, feeling really lethargic. Got an injury on the back of my knee which hurts most of the times even when i'm climbing the stairs or just bending down during training. And what sucks the most is competition is just about 2 weeks away. 15 days to be exact. 6 nov, guess i didn't count wrongly. I sucked at doing that damn routine. I can't get the right feel and it's like after half of it, my leg hurts so much that it's so hard to do. The broadsword make my hand hurts too cause of the friction at my wrist.

Promoting suddenly seems like nothing to me in the sense that, promoting is important but than it doesn't seems as important as results. It's like i care more about having good grades than just being able to promote. Getting a overall 58% seems like shit cancxz. I wanna have above 60% which i've never gotten. I really really hope i could do that next year. I'm having high hopes now all over again.

Some people need longer time, some need shorter time, i guess i need longer time. Maybe this time ain't that easy and it's real. You are the last thing i think of before i sleep, and the first when i woke up.

2010-10-19T16:10:00.002+08:00

So much for working so hard yet it's all just shit results. When can i ever be as smart as the others and stop getting those screwed up marks. Biology was alright, i mean i expected that score. Physics & maths was the most unexpected. I never ever expected that score. Mr Gan & Miss juni talked to me, i appreciate it. Almost broke down right in front of them, but i never did. I knew i always appeared strong so i knew i couldn't broke down right in front of them. Mr gan asked me how was my other subjects, and all i could say is i really don't know but he gave me hope. He told me it should be fine. I really can't trust hope anymore. Is hope even a real word? Does it even have a meaning? Miss juni told me how she didn't do well last time too, how she was very pressurize in secondary 3. But i didn't just screwed up one year, i screwed up sec 1 & 2. There isn't time left. I studied so hard but yet this was all i had. Everything left me in despair. Everything isn't going the way i want. I'm losing hope, losing faith, losing everything i could. I can't deny the fact that the hard work for chinese was paid off. Got really good results for chinese but chinese isn't everything. It doesn't replace the other subjects. God didn't answer my prayers, was it i didn't pray hard enough or what. Or just i didn't put in enough effort? I've never go so disappointed with myself before. Even mye wasn't that bad. I just got no courage to face tml and the other papers i'm going to get back. I'm never going to have high hopes because having when all your hopes are dashed, you are crashed. Screw all this.

Tried to hold back my tears today in school. Didn't want to let others see the always strong girl broke down, the always laughing person couldn't smile anymore. Wushu taught us to stay strong and endure. But it seems useless now. People that are always lower than me are like better than me. shouldn't i reflect and think what's happening. Maybe i shouldn't enjoy this holiday. I'm damn screwed.

2010-10-15T19:29:00.002+08:00

EATPRAYLOVE

That movie's awesome though it's quite draggy. It teaches you about life. It's like how life should be balanced & stuff & how relationships can be so screwed up. for one thing i'm sure, americans sure are damn open. "Sometimes you need to be unbalance in love to be balanced in life" and "Love is just scary. Dangerous" No doubt. Love just break your heart and make you sad. They make people suffer. I think i get high when i see caucasians and i think the two guys in the movie is super hot :D The movie is just pretty long but it's really nice (: I learn so much about life and if i could, i would download that movie and watch it again.

2010-10-12T16:57:00.002+08:00

YES! Finally done with geog & bio paper. Can feel that sense of relief which is damn awesome. But i surely still need endure for 3 more days & that i can party till i drop. After 9.15am tml, it's officially 2 days left. After 9.15am on thursday, it's gonna be one day left, but it's much slacker already. Friday's paper is listening compre & ACC. So thursday it's like break whoo~~ But friday is the official end to the whole of eoy!! :D AND I'M GONNA SHOUT FREEDOM AFTER FRIDAY!! :D I need to distress like asap before i go mad. hehehe. k, i shall go & continue with history. BYE!

2010-10-10T19:34:00.001+08:00

I'm having a lot of emotional breakdown these days.

I seriously cannot do it anymore.

I feel like giving up yet i know i can't.

I can't screw up my results.

Someone tell me what should i do!

No one understands the kind of pain i'm suffering.

I'm driving myself mad or rather eoy is driving me like some fuck shit.

2010-10-10T12:39:00.003+08:00

Someone shoot me now pls. I can't do this anymore. The stress is too much. I'm super screwed for eoy. I feel like dying right now. Wake me up when 14oct comes. I feel like giving up. I don't how to memorize those bloody notes. Everyday staring at notes after notes, chunk of words after words, i've got no idea how to memorize them. I blame myself for my stupidity. I blame myself why can't i be like other people? They are so smart that they don't even need to memorize & they can understand and why can't i? Why do i need to keep memorizing. Why do i take so long to memorize. I can't do this anymore.

It's just five more days and i know i'm going to flunk my sciences and my humanities. I don't want to but what can i do when time is running out and when my brain can't even process in all the infomation. For goodness sake, i haven even start memorizing for physics when it's tml. I'm so dead. why not kill me now. I'm gonna screw up my results.

Fuck it.

2010-10-06T18:23:00.002+08:00

I've been pretty slack and i hate myself for being so stupid. Others can remember & understand things so well but i can't. And i'm getting really annoyed with biology & geog because i'm taking a long time to memorise them which sucks when these two subjects are on tuesday. I'm gonna screw this two paper which i'm trying my best not to and desperately trying to store everything into my brain. If only my brain was a 64GB memory card... so yeah, i'm feeling bloody stress now esp when i'm sick too.

I think i'm pretty satisfied with my CA2 results. It's quite good. It's not fantastic but it's acceptable to me. One might think that it's like quite shitty, but to me, i know i improved. I feel contented. Always trying my best to strive for better.

78 for chinese, i feel so happy yeah! :D It's finally a A1!

B4 for english & lit, not bad eh. But i expect better for lit.

B3 for history. I don't really care. HAHA. quite high already taking into consideration that i always gl that teacher. hehehe.

Pass for science! Best thing ever (:

I think that's all that i know (: will only know geog tml. Not expecting really good results for it.

I should study really hard now so that i won't feel guilty when i play very hard after exams end. I should work hard now so that i can have good grades. And i can lead a happier life! (:

2010-09-30T18:30:00.002+08:00

I went to the hospital today to visit my friend today. Glad that she's fine. Seeing the children and pre teens there make me feel really sad. The oldest girl in that ward was my age. Knew what happened to her and it make me think that, someone my age could get something like that. Imagine that she have can't even walk properly, it's like she feels so wobbly. That kind of feeling can never be described. Only she knows how bad it feels. Seeing so many kids with different illness, yet they pluck up the courage to fight for their own rights and own their life. They prove that they can overcome anything. Another 3 year old girl, she will vomit every time she eat. However, she didn't vomit today and she ate a lot. She was really some very cheerful. She came to talk to us even though we didn't understand, but we knew she felt happy. She ran around, playing with the nurse. Enjoying her life like there's nothing happening. When she saw her mother, she ran towards her and hug her mum. It's those small actions that touch people's heart. If they all can continue with life happily, than why can't we, ordinary people do the same too? We keep complaining about how life sucks but we never thought about how those people feel. Deep down they know their own illness, but they chose to carry on with life.

Be happy that it's two papers down & english's over!

2010-09-28T19:32:00.003+08:00

Mr gan's cute drawing (:

Exam's on thursday, how wonderful. It's just two more days. Come to think of it, this year's pretty fast. Like really really fast. I seem to just woke up from my wonderland and start to mug really hard. Okay, probably not very very hard :/ Stress are evil. I feel stress over eoy because i haven really revise everything yet.

Can't wait for exams to end because i'm going to STICKY shop straight after the last paper! Not forgetting the plans after exams will be so awesome! :D Can't wait to go back for training though. But competition's on 6nov. I will only be left with less than 2weeks after exams to train :/ Heck it. hehehe. Shall post some pictures because the blog seems dead. K.

2010-09-27T17:41:00.003+08:00

They said, i was mugging too much. I thought, this kind of mugging is not enough. I'm sure i wasn't prepared. The last thing i would want to do is walk into the examination room feeling totally unprepared.

2010-09-26T19:09:00.002+08:00

Time's running out for me. I ought to start mugging. There's quite a fair bit that i haven revise.Studying till 1am or 3am on every friday and sat nights aren't enough. FML.

Trying to stay happy. Even when the heart is broken. Shouldn't disappoint people around me (: Stop fantasizing, wake up!

2010-09-24T22:00:00.003+08:00

If you could see it i'm kinda irritated by you.

And yeah, i'm jealous but so what?

I can't do anything yeah.

I can only cry in despair, scream for help, nothing helps.

Because i can only save myself.

And the least you could do is to stop trying to remind me about it.

Do all you want, because i can't give a damn.

Just stop turning around for so many times that it interrupts my learning.

i don't give a hoot if she's gonna ask you to read this because i can say that i don't give a damn about anything.

Feeling down now, listening to perfect and impossible and this two songs make me really wanna cry.

There's nothing i could do. Please teach me what to do.

Tears welling up in my eyes,

heart broken into pieces.

I know life's gonna get better as time passes.

You will be out of my life soon enough.

Time will prove everything.

I'm waiting for that rainbow after every rain (:

Falling a thousand feet per second, you still take me by surprise

I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes

Making every kind of silence, takes a lot to realize

It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie

And as long as I can feel you holding on

I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying

'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start

I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave

Was it something I said or just my personality?

-perfect by hedley

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know , I know
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

-impossible by shontelle

2010-09-18T21:46:00.002+08:00

Should update on blogger already.

Some of the tumblr's pictures on my tumblr sum up what i've been through.

Life's been super mugging mood now.

Need to mug my ass off to get into a combination i want and most importantly,

good grades.

School's quite horrendous, rushing all the lessons.

Rushing all the homeworks, teacher trying to finish up whatever's up.

Fourth level sucks totally.

Climbing up and down everyday isn't fun.

It's really tiring.

But flood that day during lesson was fun! (:

Esp when it was calligraphy so we could walk around and play with the water.

Soon, all the other 3 classes came out and played too.

Really really cool to see flood on the fourth level.

Doubt the lake was even flooded.

HAHAHA!

Fourth level seems great because i would be seeing you less often.

Miss the people on first level!

Fourth level people aren't fun!

2010-09-10T00:54:00.002+08:00

I want to have the determination in everything i do (:

People aren't always satisfied with whatever they had.

How could humans ever be satisfied?

We yearn for more when what we had seems great to others.

We should learn to find happiness from what we have instead of finding what we want and not get any happiness.

2010-09-10T00:36:00.002+08:00

Jaf qi is so cool in this picture.

And it's all because of me! (: I took it k!

Holiday's been so productive.

I feel so proud of myself that i actually did make the effort to study! :D

On the other hand, i feel so lazy to go for more training D:

Miss training with that team of people.

Training is getting on with lesser people already, don't know what's happening.

Everyone seems to be so busy with our life that we can't contribute to training anymore.

Nationals would be quite screwed up i suppose.

Hongkun left and went to china to study/intern i suppose.

GOOD LUCK THERE! :D

Can't wait for beijing trip at the end of the year.

Not mentioning i miss hefei a lot D:

really wanna go back there like soon.

Life's there been so awesome.

Miss shopping there! :D HAHAH.

Art project on tues was fun ttm.

DSLR is so freaking fun to snap pictures with!

Falling in love with dslr! (:

Dude, you aren't even worth of my time.

2010-09-05T14:09:00.002+08:00

Many people are mugging their ass off already.

Yet i'm still slacking. Nice one. Totally.

Time to get started with work.

Time to mug my ass off too.

25 more days to EOY.

Screw it.

I'm so screwed.

Thanks so much.

Why did you even appear in my life making things so much harder.

Making it so hard to forget all about you.

Thanks.

off to TRY to study!

2010-08-31T18:06:00.001+08:00

Went back admps today after fantastic concert in cchm.

Admps feel so kiddy now, its so colourful!

Saw raphael, krystal, tristen, tsaqib, justin first.

OMG, THE GUYS VOICE ARE SO COOL (Y)

They break voice, than it's like super weird and very deep.

Can't stop laughing when they talk (:

Saw greg after that. OMG. Never knew he was so funny.

Had really awesome catch up with 6ed'08.

The best class ever had in primary school.

Even though the girls was like the few of us only, but we still enjoyed talking to each other.

Everything seems like the past (:

2010-08-30T17:19:00.002+08:00

Told kenric & jafqi so much things today during chinese lesson.

It's time to set myself free.

Stop indulging so much into _____.

Not worth the sacrifice eh.

Someone teach me how to.

2010-08-25T21:43:00.003+08:00

Soccer, handball yog was super awesome.

But feel sad that singapore lost to haiti in the football match.

I really thought & wanted singapore to win eh!

Handball match was freaking nice too.

Before we went there, we thought that from 1pm to 9.45pm was super long, it's gonna be boring.

But when we were there, it was so exciting that we can't stop screaming and going crazy.

It was way too fun! :D

I like cook islands fighting spirit.

And even though they lost to singapore, but they still thanked us for their support.

They danced their cheer for us.

And they ran around the court, feeling really happy.

They weren't even sad.

They just though that it was a really good experience and they stayed cheerful (:

I thought they are really cool.

Singapore players were so like aloof la.

France & egypt match was super crazily mad!

Your ear drums could burst, your attention could be so easily diverted.

Sweden people came to our school today (:

Really feel that they are awesome. COOL EH.

Pictures on facebook.

Check out all my photos for yog on fb (:

Really busy these days. YOG, TESTS, PROJECTS. FAINTS.

Sometimes i wonder, so little people can really be satisfied with the experience they get, they do not even bother about the result. And i know i can't. The result i get in a match/competition seems so extremely important.

Being called a athlete sounds really nice (: And i feel proud to be a sport person

I wanna represent my own country one day & be someone famous (:

2010-08-18T21:18:00.001+08:00

Can life be simpler?

I hate how singapore life is like.

Tests and tests, homeworks after homeworks, proj after proj.

I miss the china life.

Where everything was just about training.

You never need to bother whether you did your homework.

You don't need to think if you forgot to do anything.

Because you just need to be present for training and train hard.

But i swear life's horrible now.

I feel like dying.

Everything's flooding over me.

Stop it before i can't take it.

And are you going to be the one that bear the consequences?

Can i cry it out loud even when i know nothing's gonna change?

Shawn Johnson is fourth US gymnast to win all-around title

2010-08-16T21:18:00.000+08:00

Shawn Johnson. She's way too good.

2010-08-15T19:58:00.001+08:00

Apparently, i'm going crazy over yog.

Finding every way to get a ticket.

Those events that still have tickets are the events that i don't like or the time doesn't suit me.

I don't want to skip school.

There's too much to catch up.

And those that i wanted to go have no more tickets already.

If i got my table tennis ticket on friday night, i will get it!

But i wanted to further confirm, hence i waited till last night, and the tickets were gone!

No more tickets available, sold out already.

DAMN! See how one day could make such a big difference? :/

I feel sad that i can't go.

I'm only going for football.

2010-08-09T09:38:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! (:

Maybe today's the day where i should forget about everything.

No, it shouldn't be today only.

It should be everyday.

I should just let life be how it is,

how god planned it.

And i shall not be bothered by anything.

And i know it aren't easy to do it,

but i'm giving my best and trying to.

Aren't life simpler if everything come easy and smooth?

But why life isn't like this?

Maybe it's time to bring joy back to everyone around.

I should stop pondering over every thing.

Because pondering over it make me unhappy.

Than i should just be cheerful and simple.

Being naive is the best huh (:

2010-08-08T21:33:00.002+08:00

At some moment in time, i really hate you to the core

I really hate being at here, facing you all the time.

I don't understand why am i born in such circumstances.

And i don't understand why am i here to withstand all your nonsensical pms & being so unreasonable.

And don't even give a care when you are so pms

Showing tantrum is all you know huh.

And i'm learning to be rebellious, i guess its the unhealthy circumstances i'm in and you that allow me to become so rebellious.

So don't end up blaming me to become how i am,

because its you that result me in this and its you that drive me so crazy, so insane.

2010-08-04T19:05:00.001+08:00

A joke that hurts- sometimes I wonder how i bear with these.

They joke like there’s no other business, and most of the time, it can be really insulting.

But i treat it like nothing and just laughed.

I wonder if my tolerance level was really that high.

But then at the same time, i thought if letting them joke about me though it hurts, but they could be my friend, i don’t mind. I feel like i’m such a loser. Oh.

But what could i do about it?

Is true friends suppose to be the kind that joke at you, but the kind of joke that feel really insulting and it really hurts you, but you can only act as if, you really know that’s a joke, it doesn’t hurts.

I know she’s a true friend, she asked them to stop.

But what can she do if they don’t want to?

There’s nothing she can do.

I don’t know if i should stop them from saying or should i just let it be.

I really don’t know how to handle the things in my life, and i’m just letting it be, let nature be this way!

2010-08-03T20:25:00.003+08:00

It’s really true when people say that humans only know how to cherish when it’s gone. When you are gone, i really felt that the whole world crashed on me. I didn’t know what was going on, i thought this wasn’t going to be true but the fact’s there, i can only face it. And i knew that you still haven tell me what happened. I thought our friendship’s going to last, but it didn’t. Not the least of being friends. I’m still waiting, everyday, every night, every time, i’m waiting. Waiting for miracles that i know won’t happen. Waiting for your SMS to come, but it never come. Waiting for you seems meaningless but i’m willing to, for i see that there might be something good in it. I really miss the times where we talk, where we SMS day & night, where we share what’s happening in our lives and yet now, we are nothing but strangers again. I could still remember what happened between us, all the things that happened before. I even remember the things we talk about before, how you help me before. You haven’t give me the sweetest and the best memories yet, so why are you leaving? You left me alone to fight this battle alone, i’m not confident of winning this battle, so why aren’t you here to fight together with me. They say, it’s useless to be waiting for something that might never come back to you again, but i thought, miracles may happen, so why not i wait for it while i learn how be independent and move on with life. I just hope we can be at least friends again. I just hope to talk to you again. Never in my life, i will forget you i suppose. Your impact on me is already there, permanent.

It's amazing how you are a stranger to me before, and now you are someone so important to me.

2010-07-30T20:21:00.001+08:00

Sometimes i wonder, why do people always get to compete with not strong competitors. Yet, why am i always competing with strong competitors and it always seems impossible to get a gold and yet, to others, even if they are lousier than me, they can get a gold easily. Yet i have to strive to achieve it and i never could at least for now i can’t. Is it because god want it this way. God want me get better experience. God want me to strive harder to win those champions. Maybe what i’m facing are planned by god. Maybe one day, i’m the one that work my ass off to get to the top and others don’t work as hard because everything comes easy for them. Maybe my life’s harder to achieve so that i can be a better person. MAYBE.

Can someone tell me i really can do it.

2010-07-26T19:34:00.001+08:00

Life is like mountain climbing. Fulfillment is achieved by relentless dedication to the ascent, sometimes slow, painful step, by slow, painful step.
Scaling the mountain is an indescribable experience, one only fellow climbers can understand and share. Amid the relief, satisfaction, and exhaustion is a sense of joy and peace as rarefied as the mountain air. Only the climber tastes this sweet success. those who stay encamped may just be justified as well as warmer and safer, but never will they feel “on purpose”, as alive, as proud and as joyful.
Success can be defined as the degree to which one moves forward and upward, progressing in one’s lifelong mission, despite all obstacles or other forms of adversity.

I thought this whole thing i learnt during lit lecture was really motivational. Life is just like climbing mountain. Only when you reach the top, you do all it takes to reach the top than you feel the enjoyment, you feel the fulfillment and the sweetness in it. Only when you feel that you really took the effort to do it, you care about it and you succeed, than you feel the joy in it. However if you fail to do it, you give up halfway, you never will feel the same thing as a climber would feel. A climber are possibility thinkers, never allowing age, gender,race, physical or mental disability or any other obstacles to get in the way of the Ascent. This is what a climber should be, and what everyone should be, we should all work to get to the top irregardless of whatever that gets into our way. We should not give up.

Being defeated is often a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent.

2010-07-22T14:43:00.003+08:00

Home econ today was really fun and enjoyable, though it has always been enjoyable.

I've got a china buddy today with me during home econ.

So cook macaroni cheese with her together (:

And turns out she loved what we cook.

Its really nice, i like it too (:

I'm gonna add her on QQ and continue keeping in touch with her.

She's really nice :D

But today's her last day in our school :/

School's killing me i swear.

School work's being a toll on me.

Training is crazily mad too.

Eye candy cheers me up (: But i didn't see eye candy today! :(

That explains why i don't feel happy today. HAHAHAHA.

Its time to really let go and just live life the way it is.

I believe everything happens for a reason, things around us happen this way for it's suppose to be like this, there's a reason for it to happen.

2010-07-19T12:39:00.002+08:00

Bazaar on sat was fun and boring. Haunted house was funny with renzoe's comments. Kept my eyes closed at all times. I'd rather go in and keep my eyes close and just enjoy the laughter than to see those scary faces of the "ghost". HAHA. Mavis say it was very scary. The room feels small, but the journey was really long. I wanted to ask when will this end. HAHA. Can feel that got people touch me. Grab my leg also. LOL. I just shrug. Eclairs sold out really quickly. We keep ordering for more. Too overwhelming (:

2010-07-14T19:52:00.000+08:00

I hate you totally.
I don't retaliate doesn't mean that i'm scared of you, it just simply means that i can't be bothered with you.
You only know how to guai lan people.
When did i ever offend you? I don't even give a damn about you.
So can you just shut the crap up and stop poking into other people's business?
You should seriously shut up.
I think you don't even know whats manners esp in ms chong's lesson.
There ain't much for me to say, if i were to rant on, this would take forever.
But i want to tell you that you are woo yu jin. And i hate you to the core.
Just stop coming and guai lan me.
I never even do anything to you ._.

Its the first time i'm saying who i'm talking about which proves that i cant be bothered anymore.
And it proves that you are getting way over my nerves.

Cant wait for sat's bazaar (:
And i love cchms wushu team hell loads.

2010-07-12T21:25:00.000+08:00

I'm on tumblr now (: Its really much better than blogger. I love it.
Life's been really packed.
Today's totally rushing.
Came home and got started on doing my slides for presentation on wed.
I've got two presentation and i'm only done with one.
Hotmail is failing me. I cant sent to my teacher, suay la.

Everything's driving me crazy.

2010-07-10T21:49:00.002+08:00

Performance at cchy today was okay i suppose.

Teachers said that it went really well.

My leg didn't hurt so i feel great (:

Cchy band people were in the LT with us as holding area

the girls were laughing so loudly and weird,

that i laughed along too.

Laughed because they were laughing and it was damn funny.

And soon, all of us except peixi was laughing at how they were laughing

HAHA. Even ms chan and ms ho laugh okay. HAHAHA.

And angry birds is addictive (Y)

No use thinking about the past if it keep giving you unhappy memories. Why not think about how the future may be better.

2010-07-09T20:30:00.001+08:00

I seems to have 1001 things on my to do list.

This is mad.

and performance at cchy tml.

LOL TTM.

Whole cchy going to watch. LOL.

Main performing for branch to watch.

Cool or what? (:

Kind of injured my knee.

It hurts at times.

And my heels :(

cant take it.

2010-07-08T15:08:00.003+08:00

Life's really way too messy for me.

I'm like a lost sheep in the huge big farm.

Not knowing which direction to go.

I feel like breaking down, stop everything i'm doing.

I just don't even get what i'm doing, seriously.

I'm going to stop a few training next week, i can't do this anymore.

I'm neglecting my studies way too much.

It's not good for me. Its streaming year.

Its time to work really hard.

Yet when others are studying, i'm out training and having fun.

I need to study badly.

I'm lost in class. Not knowing what to do.

Hoping there's no homework everyday to hand up because i'm not doing everything.

Projects, deadline. Everything's rushing me! I cant take it already.

School is really hectic and having so many work, projects to do.

Teachers are making all the deadline one after another.

Making everything so squeezed up.

I'm feeling breathless.

This ought to stop.

I ought to stop and think what i'm supposed to do.

Or else, i will never be fine. I would continue being like what i am now.

Damn spain for winning germany last night. 1-0

WTH SERIOUSLY!

WHATS WRONG WITH GERMANY!!

HOW COULD GERMANY LOST TO SPAIN :(

If germany is going to lose to uruguay for third placing, i'm never going to support germany again. But if germany is going to win, i will still love germany and support germany :D

So germany, please don't let me down AGAIN. I do hope you win :D I will still pray for you :D

And whats with the stupid octopus.

You should predict that germany will win spain right

You own country ley, not loyal one lo.

NOOB PAUL THE OCTOPUS!

I cant wait to get out of the class.

Cant wait to graduate from that class.

Some people are really getting on my nerves,

and i cant take it anymore.

This is going crazy.

2010-07-04T20:38:00.002+08:00

This guy is way too awesome. He's the goalkeeper for germany in the match yesterday.

Germany : Argentina. 4:0

Manuel Neuer is a super good goalkeeper. Way too good.

So now i'm supporting germany :D

This guy scored for germany yesterday. He's like super super happy.

See how humans can be so happy when they feel proud of something they did.

See how its like to represent your country and win something for your country.

Do your country proud.

I would want to do my country proud someday too.

And that is to start working hard from now on.

This guy sure work very hard to make his country proud.

FREEDOM. FEEL THE FREE.

You don't need to shout out loud that you've got courage.

You just need to show it to yourself.

Do it to yourself.

When you fail, try again.

Failure is a part of the journey getting to success.

Be motivated and start doing!

I need to be motivated to do my homework and study.

Cant go out tml so i shall study tml.

Make good use of youth day though i'm suppose to be out enjoying my YOUTH DAY! :(

To reach the top make no excuses. It ain't that easy to do that.

2010-07-02T21:28:00.002+08:00

Physics isn't as hard as i thought now. This topic seems easier like really. Light- reflection and refraction. Its easier so i hope i can pass. I'm going to reread my notes again and make sure i'm coping well with it and understand so that when i come to a hard question, i will still be able to cope.

Went to cchy on wed for rehearsal. Fun yeah. So bored,nothing to do. Hence, we started doing different routines and the jumps and just playing around like we own the place. HAHA. Oh jiayi and me was playing angry birds. I damn fail. Jiayi damn pro. Our reaction is damn funny la. Weixuan and renzoe keep jumping and doing taolu here and there. Peixi is like so neutral in everything. She just see what we keep doing.

Whats the point of having you as my sibling.

I don't hate you if i do sound like i hate you..

But i don't. I care for you.

But you don't seems to appreciate.

Well, maybe you don't even feel it and appreciate it.

Its time i'm stopping to care for you, its time i stop everything i'm doing for you.

Don't expect me to be like who i am in the past.

I'm not going to care about you.

We are just gonna be like friends.

Maybe not as close as before.

I've got no idea how's everything gonna be like.

And we don't even have the basic trust we have for each other.

Aren't siblings suppose to trust each other and rely on one another?

But we don't seems to be this way.

可能是长大了，都有自己的事情，自己的朋友，不用互相了。

这也不是我相要的。

I don't get it.

As a family, there's no reason to lie for some small little things.

Yeah right, you don't even want to tell me why you go for operation.

Fine, thats it.

I know i don't matter as a sister to you anymore

I dont even need to try to be a good sister anymore.

Because i won't want to even try anymore.

Afterall, you are still my brother.

我也明白，你自己有自己的朋友能靠的，不再需要我。

你有自己的事情，不再需要我和你玩闹。

我也不想在改变什么了。

就汛期自然吧。

This game is getting tiring.

shall study on monday and tml. Tuition tml. Sino night tml.

Life's such a jerk (quoted from zoe)

But well, i'm trying to make life good.

2010-06-29T16:21:00.002+08:00

1st of school yesterday was alright, quite pleasant.

Changed assistant form teacher.

The new one is our ACC teacher, she not bad la.

Chinese will have two teachers.

But wang wei's not back from china yet.

She's coming back to school this week.

2nd day of school today was fine.

Rained in the morning.

Sadly, it wasn't big enough to flood the school again.

was hoping it flood so we could all stop school (:

Not going sino tonight, shall study then. And do the homeworks i'm supposed to pass up next week. Shall do this efficiently. Shall not wait till the day before to do (:

Going sino tml and thurs night.

Tml going cchy for rehearsal.

Think its gonna be fun (:

performance on 10th july.

Speech day/ 71 anniversary.

Its gonna get better (: It will.

2010-06-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

School starting in less than 12 hours.

Good luck and have fun man.

I kind of dread going to school.

2010-06-26T22:15:00.001+08:00

Performance today went well.

No mistakes= no 25 laihui of frog jump

Never pon= no 50 laihui of frog jump

HAHA.

GOOD JOB SINO! :D

YAY AND GOOD JOB TO ME FOR NO SHI WU! ^^

Oh and i think performance just now was damn fun and damn joke.

Qin jl damn funny.

Keep on ask anyone to go up and do cause too much extra time. HAHA

And we all went up unprepared.

But then its fun! (:

Nice experience okay.

2010-06-25T22:29:00.002+08:00

Kbox yesterday was simply awesome.
Had alot of fun with ryan, weixuan and yiting. Damn freaking epic.
I think we are like super crazy hehe.
Ip man the legend is born.
Not nice la. dont really like it.
should have watched karate kid.
I HAVEN WATCH YET DAMN!

Performance at bishan tml.
FML.
He say if i shi wu, whole white team punish 25 lai hui of frog jump.
Nice one totally.
Are you trying to stress me out or is it just your method of taking revenge?
And if i pon, its gonna be 50 lai hui of frog jump.
EPIC.
Its seriously lame ttm.
Speechless.

You seriously suck these days.

2010-06-23T20:20:00.002+08:00

Where's that team spirit we used to have?

Where's the training spirit that we used to be carrying with us always?

Where's that team that i've always been training with?

Where's all of you?

Whats with all these training?

Where's those fun time?

I miss how we used to train together as a big white team.

I miss how we always have fun during training even if it felt tired.

Things changing so much that i cant catch up.

Its moving way too fast.

It need to slow down.

I'm moving slowly.

I don't get the drive during training in sino.

And i'm missing all of the teammates that i've always been training with.

I'm hanging out with those primary school kids now and they think the same way as i do about someone.

I feel like i'm a kid again with them.

Having fun, playing together, do homework together, teasing ryan together, ganging up on someone and not forgetting wrestling.

But training doesn't feel nice.

The feeling isn't there like the past.

I don't get the drive to train.

And whenever this person isn't there, the whole training just doesn't seems motivational enough and it feels weird.

He will always be going for training till lately he aren't.

Where's the drive to train?

I need it back.

I need the team back.

We all need the drive back.

We all need to spirit to train again!

Is it because the coach is so different now that things change.

Maybe it isn't us,

maybe its that coach that result in all this.

After school reopen, i'm going with qin jl.

I'm going to train under him.

I'm firm on my choice.

Shopping ytd at bugis was simply awesome and efficient (:

Love it.

Sentosa show was nice too.

Voyage de La Vie :D

OUTING TML WITH RENZOE, YITING, WEIXUAN AND RYAN!

its gonna be fun fun fun ttm! :D

YAY!

Something worth being happy about! :D

She's gonna win me someday.

its time to buck up.

I shouldn't be losing to her.

I'm saying lose already lose already.

It shouldn't be like this.

Slow down please.

2010-06-20T20:01:00.001+08:00

Cant wait to go shopping with ah ma on tuesday after morning training in sino.

Thursday outing with yiting, renzoe,weixuan and ryan. AWESOME! :D Miss them loads.

Wed and fri- sino training followed by cchm training.

This week's kind of bland but with the outings, it feels better.

Life's been just so average.

2010-06-15T19:52:00.002+08:00

In sino, the passion will always disappear.

But in CCHM, the passion never fails to be strong.

I LOVE CCHM WUSHU TEAM.

I love sino wushu team too.

But i cant take the training anymore.

Its way too, i don't know how to explain.

If you think you can control me, i'm sorry you cant.

I ain't the young girl anymore.

I'm growing up.

I'm having my own thinking, my own way of doing things.

If you think I don't behave like the other people of my age behave's,

I guess you need to really open your eyes wide, open your mind up and see the outside world.

See who's really willing to only be able to go out once a week or twice a week.

See who's really able to tolerate that horrible attitude of yours.

I'm sorry but your methods no longer works on me.

I've grown immune to it.

Probably, i'm rebelling to it.

Maybe, its time you use the soft way instead of the hard way.

Hard way don't usually work on me.

You lost my respect for you as a coach.

I ain't afraid of your wacks anymore.

Even though the marks are still on my leg up till now.

But i can't be bothered by your wacks anymore.

Maybe yes, i dont take the hard way.

So your method doesn't work on me.

I MISS QIN JL'S TRAINING!

I want qin jl to teach me.

I miss cchm training even though i just had it yesterday! :/

Maybe you do matters at times.

I need a break

2010-06-13T18:50:00.002+08:00

"why is it so then whenever i give my best, all they say is"its not enough".
Dont they ever realize how much effort you attempt to put in?
Dont they understand that its already the best you can do?
Dont they see that these are not excuses- the exact way they enjoy putting it.
Dont they ever sporadically consider things from my perspective?
One thing's for sure-im no superwoman. I do need a break, i do need to have my own freedom.
All of which; its not up to you to guage nor voice. Because i'm the master of my world."

Quoted from shuenyee's blog. & this is exactly what i felt.

I seriously need a life.

I need a break too.

my life shouldn't be just evolving around trainings and trainings and more trainings.

Its the holiday, shouldn't i be out playing instead of going training everyday.

FYI, i've only been out once this two weeks.

Pathetic much huh.

Pity me then.

My life isn't all that great.

All i want is just a little break each week yet it doesn't seems like its going to happen.

I'm only left with two weeks of holiday yet i haven even enjoy my holiday yet.

What's this!

SOMETIMES in life, you thought you are going ahead with something that seems to sucks, but a little surprises or positive things do happens.

I'm trying to be positive.

2010-06-10T20:37:00.002+08:00

Wavehouse was simply awesome! :D Especially with elizabeth goh darling.

Love wavehouse. Its damn fun!

Dinner was fabulous too. Cant stop laughing.

Lunch at ajisen ramen was simply delicious. TOTALLY ROCKS! :D Tom yam!

In conclusion, yesterday was simply sweet and fun. Its damn fun. I had lots of fun.

I enjoyed yesterday alot alot.

Falling has never felt so nice before (:

I need a heaven life, not a HELL life